SHEDDING TEARS

                                         SHEDDING TEARS

To weep is to make less the depth of grief, this is what Shakespeare once wrote. I believe he is right. In many instances in my life I cried. But what I'm crying for?

This morning, I received a text and a sort of reminder that says "Happy Birth Day Papa" my location is unknown because my kids do not know my present whereabouts, though they know that I live a striking distance from them.

When I read the message, my tears begins to form in my eyes and suddenly teardrops flowing, rolling and dropping. Much more when part of the message says, "PAPA WE WISH FOR YOUR HAPPINESS."
As I write this article, I need to pause for a while and wipes out my tears not only once but repeatedly over and over again.

I wish you can relate with my story. I was a Frustrated Father and Disheartened Husband. My simple dream vanishes away.

I never expected that things like this will happen to me. How I wish I can bring back those times when my kids were still young and from there reversed the situation so that it will have a different outcome.

Until now, I do not have other family. My kids knew that my relationship with their mother is not so bad but not so good either. And I regretted  because they are the ones directly affected.

This is day three for me, alone and lonely in my new rented house. I always like this even when I was a kid. At age 6 or 7 my father died and I need to work in my tender age in order to survived. This explain why I acted and behave like this.

I thought my crying is over but I was wrong. I received another text this time coming from my eldest son. The message read like this, "PAPA I KNOW I DID A LOT OF THINGS THAT BROKE YOUR HEART PLEASE FORGIVE ME AND I WAS NOT ABLE TO SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU."

It really broke my heart to tears. As a father I have a lot of expectation from my eldest son. I sent him to seminary to give him a good education only to find out later that he is not studying he keep this thing secret with connivance of his mother.

I give him another chance to study a course which he likes but then again he blew his chance. For so long I kept this grudge in my heart against my son. And he knew it. Even if you have a heart made of stone when you heard these words from your sons/daughter it will break it to pieces. This explains Why I'm Crying.

According to Dr. Frey people shed tears on the following reasons:

* Sadness accounts for 49 percent of tears;
* Happiness for 21 percent;
* Anger for 10 percent;
* Sympathy, 7 percent;
* Anxiety, 5 percent;
* Fear, 4 percent.

But science attest to the truth that a person feels better after crying. Yes I feel better after crying. Researchers says that crying is good for three reasons it reduces tensions, remove toxins, and increase the body's ability to heal itself.